Lizzie Leona is making me so proud! She's almost 20 pounds now and 27 inches tall! We are going to have to get another car seat soon. Being her mommy has taught me so much about God's love for us and its really brought my hubbie and I closer - not farther - apart. Now, we are more honest with each other, because we are both determined and committed to having a Christian family and we absolutly refuse to allow children to pull us apart. So the honesty has helped resolve a lot of problems that otherwise might have been an emotional wedge.

Being a mommy has also taught me to trust in God more than all that book learnin' I can become obsessed with. Part of the reason I went to college was because I LOVE learning. But the more books I read about parenting, the more confused and scared I become. Will I psychologically harm Lizzie if she sleeps with us? When do I stop night time feedings? When do I start solids? Should I homeschool? Lizzie NEVER cries - I don't let her. The minute she starts getting fussy I change her diaper, calm her down or nurse her. This includes at night. Am I hurting her self-soothing skills by not letting her cry?

All these thoughts and more run through my head all the time. Then it hits me. I need to pray more, and read God's word. If I do that, he will guide me. As long as my heart is in the right place and I make the best decisions possible, he will not steer me wrong. In other words, the closer I bond with Lizzie, and especially with God, the more in tuned to her needs I will become and then I'll make choices that will be beneficial to her.

I thank God for educational resources, I just need to make sure I don't base my parenting technique on what they say I should do.